UNDER THE SEA

A night of relaxing and spending time with each other Muscle decided to take me scuba diving away from our busy building site and to relax me to forget about worries and make me smile .what better then to swim with fishes,watch turtles and sting rays see a great underwater world. You can get breath taking views above the surface but they are just as good below was amazing sight to watch and it just blew me away. With my Honey at my side and great world to explore what more can anyone ask for.

zena getting lost in a school of fish

I'm forever blowing bubbles......

Muscle blowing bubbles at me or

maybe he is trying to tell me something ;-)

OHHHHHH Jellyfish , I keep quiet maybe they won't sting me ;-)

Following Muscle as always he's the light that shows the way

Muscle and zena still fine time for eye to eye contact

Finish the night off with a dance under the sea

LOVING ANGELS

Thought I would have a go at this new wind light version on SL today , take some pictures of sunsets to see what they are like, as you can tell from my blog I love taking pictures. Muscle and Zena being the main subject. I suppose my blog is like a photo album, filled with great memories for 2 people. Anyway me being me got a bit side tracked and went off for a photo shoot. Armed with my camera and my wardrobe off I trot. As madonna sung "strike a pose" zena step up to the mark and vogued with the best of them. These you see are just really for someones eyes who looks at this blog most days and it always brings him a smile he always knows theres an Angel watching over him . Hes loving a Fallen Angel who has fallen for her devil prince.

These are just a few of what I took I got a little carried away and my hard drive is kind of full , but its all in the name of fun. It was brilliant I was just like a supermodel .SL is the best thing since slice bread you can be who you want to be Kate Moss eat ya heart out.

REFLECTION

Looking at my journey , I realise I have changed so much on my journey , from where I go on SL to the company I keep. I think most of us go on to SL in search of something . I must have done but didn't realise what it was . Meeting new people listening to there opinions, wanting to be part of a group . I went throw it all . I think I needed a purpose in my SL life . I has happy in my old life but not content always looking for the next laugh or journey . I needed a crowd to feed me and make me shine. Then along came my nearest and dearest and all change. I don't need that crowd of people no more , I love all we do, we spend most of our time on our land creating things and living in each other minds.We don't go exploring to other Sim's like we used to ,we have no need,we got all we need on our door steps .
If anyone knows me, I listen to all points of views, go away to think about it and make my own mind up, so then I cant blame anyone else if it goes wrong but with Muscle I do take his feelings and his opinions on board,its a first time in a long time I listen to someone else. I have been spending a lot less time in SL and the only thing I really miss is him, when I'm on and Muscles not it feels like my right arm has been cut of. I wonder round like a lost puppy . I love my circle of friends as there always on hand to talk and wouldn't swap them for the world, but I can't be bothered meeting new ones , the facts are... my SL life is complete and full with Muscle and the friends I have got. I have found my vocation on SL why would I want anything else. Maybe in the future it will all change but who knows why worry about what may never happen . I only know.... I need not search anymore for an answer because the answer to my dreams and the end of my own journey is right by my side. My own journey stopped and our adventure started.
Reading this back says one thing I'm head over heels in love ........ yep I got it bad for him ;-)

WINTER IS HERE ;-)

Winter is my favorite time of the year.. Just love it . So what better then to create a winter wonderland . I was thinking to do it in the old place but the land and the prims where limited . I can do anything here. Now you should know me by now if you have been reading my Blog ...I love surprises and makes me so happy surprising Muscle . I created somewhere where we can sit and relax, have a dance and have fun skating.The best thing is that our land is on the beach you can change the appearance and make you think you are in a whole new world . we even have snow fallen from the sky. We walk throw a door and wow just like walking throw the wardrobe in Narnia.Its great and love it and Muscles face well if you noticed a bright light in the sky last night , that wasn't a star, it was him beaming , two words ..simply great . Winter wonderland wont be here forever as everything has to change and I think if something is a permanent fixture then the enjoyment becomes stale, so why loose the magic of a place keep it as long as necessary then send it to your dreams and memory's.

HOUSE BUILDING

well time to build our house , from scratch mmmmmm not as easy as it looks . But fun this one was our second attempt at a house (picture to the left). Muscle did most of the work. Bob the builder ant got nothing on him. The first attempt I left him with one night, it was late and he was busy working , I could here the cogs in his brain ticking away.I logged on next day and the house had totally changed to something completely different , bless him he worked long hours creating this one. It was good but was lacking in something.We thought we would look around at other houses on SL . There are some fantastic builds to buy on here and cheap. We just wanted to build something of our very own,buying is an easy option and Zena and Muscle never take that , we laugh in a face of a challenge

We looked at designs and found one we really loved. So with an idea in our heads and a sense of "we can do this" came round 3, THE GRAND DESIGN ....





This one was a lot harder to do but Muscle created the foundations and together we finished it. Muscle making things from fresh air and Zena on his shoulder saying yep or nope. Adding scripts in for the windows where a bit of a nightmare and Muscle being his usual self wouldn't let them get the better of him. So this is our new home . Standing back and looking at it gives me a great sense of satisfaction. Its funny cause we didn't want a big house no need really cause we never really use it. So what we build a 3 storey house the size of an airport, hey we can all change our minds ;-)

TRUST

This week has been a lot of reflection as me and Muscle have been busy in our RL world. All good and great thoughts ,I think to my time on SL especially Me and Muscle and my heart fills with a warm fuzzy feeling and the feeling grows even bigger thinking of what the future holds for us . Some one asked about trust on here . Trust mmmmmm well my views on this.
Most feelings come out on SL, love,hate and jealousy just to name a few, I must say personally I have had the green eyed monster only once and lasted about 10 Min's before I took me head out of my backside and beat it down with a stick . If you have a Trust issue in RL relationships you most probably see it come on to SL, it can't be helped its what builds your personality.
Jealousy can eat you up and destroy relationships, thinking of what could be happening or maybe happening isn't healthy for SL life, SL is really about living for the moment and loosing yourself in each other or the world around. SL is a roller coaster ride for your heart and not for the faint hearted . But if you get the balance right for your feelings then WOW it's great.
Me and muscles trust well... I never doubt him and never will. Why you ask,why can I trust so easy when we are apart . My answer is simple ...... we are never apart, both of us are always in thoughts, dreams and our heart. Absents only makes the heart grow fonder , don't judge everybody by the same standard just because you may have been burned in the past doesn't mean that you will get burned in the future.Take every individual on there own Merritt , listen to other peoples opinions but make your own judgment.

HEAVEN ON EARTH

Building heaven, I was a bit bored and wanted to entertain myself while Muscle was a hunting and a gathering in RL . So what ya do when you have the world at your feet yep build above in the sky. I want to create something out of this world something that would make an impact on the face of my other half . What better then our own piece of Heaven . I had set my self a mission and wow when I had completed it was great. somewhere for us to Dance.

Like dancing on cloud 9. We danced under a rainbow what I had created, danced in mid air on clouds with the stars around us. Made the impact on lala land I wanted and was simply great .Muscle face a picture.... yep. I had done my mission and completed .For just 24 hours,we had heaven we danced among the stars and we was on cloud 9 then I took it down,we keep the memory in our hearts and dreams in our heads we don't need a permanent fixture when you have them working for you . That's what I like about having our own land we can create anything from our minds and put them in to reality (SL reality anyway ) but the memory's stay in both worlds. When you can create something that makes another smile it is simply the best feeling in this world and beyond.

LALA PARADISE

Well we have bought land and building our own world, we have decided to buy land and create whole new world , one word WOW in fact double WOW. yep I ant got my head around it and keep nipping myself just to check I'm not dreaming. Just like the feeling every time we moved home but the feeling is 10 times bigger. Why you ask did we but in a virtual word. My answer well why not. Yes this is a virtual world but its more, more to me and Muscle some where we can get lost in each others minds.
SL was to me at the start a great place , meeting new people having a laugh. My journey changed when I partnered Muscle, my whole out look on life in SL has taken a total change of direction . The things I was interested are now just a distant memories . I don't miss my old life cause I love my new one. I have everything I need in one person . So we are on the move again packed our bags and where off . LALA paradise here we come. our very own paradise where we can do what we want when we want and we don't have no one to answer to apart from ourselves. We can feed our imaginations and push them to the limit . Because we have picked up the building skills from the other houses I know this world is going to be flipping fantastic . SL watch out cause LALA land is coming . Must state very private place only selected few will have the privilege to visit that's the way we want it and like it.

ICE SKATING

This has got to be one of the most funniest night I have had on SL, we laughed so much had to get stitches in my sides. Zena on a mission to surprise Muscle . Our home sim was down so I set out on something to entertain us . Its that time of year now where the Sims are changing for Christmas .This is my favorite time of the year. I found a skating ring at Passion Park . That was to set the scene. The 2ND mission Ice skates that means shopping lol. So side tracked straight way .
I found this great Sim full of Christmas shops, Muscle came on and next thing you know where shopping hehe. Only window shopping just looking around I'm back or trying to stick to my shopping ban. Anyway finished shopping and couldn't find skates , I remembered seeing them for free some where so had to let Muscle in on a bit of my plan. We collected the skates and I tped him to the skate park . The good thing about the skates is that it had a HUD and you do all different tricks and the best thing was it also had snowball throw . That was it the war was on, taking each other out and anything that got in our way. You could also take each other out by sliding at the legs really funny to watch . you could tell both of us concentrating on hitting the other. So all get ya selves some skates Tp down to a winter Sim and have fun after all that is what SL is all about.

Hosting

I have tried out hosting in one of the clubs Black hearts. Always go in there if me and Muscle are not together. Wednesday night was my first training section . Suited and booted and ready for action. First problem I got my times wrong for sl and rl i got the times wrong hehe I wasn't late I was to early .,Not a good start .

A 3 hour training session , "Thought hey I can do this" ,just need to talk a lot and be nice to people, since I can talk for England and ramble on its a perfect job for me. I found it very mind draining, wasn't really what i expected, there was not a lot friends in there and club was quiet, people talking in own IMs. If the crowd don't want to talk you find yourself doing the work. The other problem was it clashed with Mine and Muscle times together. I wasn't happy with this at all. At the moment and I'm happy with 90% me and muscle 10% others. Didn't have time to talk to him in IMs cause you have to concentrate on the room. First time ever me and Muscle been on SL and not seen each other or spoken since being together. Didn't make me happy at all. The other thing is I only wanted to host 3 hours at the weekend . Job is wanting more commitment.I personally want to cut down my hours on SL and have been doing, I wanted to work my Hosting time in to the weekend and see friends in there, Killing 2 birds with one stone. With hosting I realised I would be spending more time on SL not a good thing and doesn't fit in to my plans .I have realised with SL its not quantity but quality.I rather have a great super smashing 4 hours then just and OK 8 hours .Rl must always come first and i personally wouldn't feel happy and haven't been feeling happy about how much time I do spend on there.

BUILDING OUR PARADISE

Building . this is a great pass time we have found and spend hours creating . To have an idea and to create something that is in your mind is just the best feeling . Muscle started first just simple things it look to complicated to me and I just bought things. I'm a ready made meal girl ;-) a lot quicker and easier don't waste time in the middle.But I started to play around with building when Muscle wasn't around and got the taste for it. The other thing is when you have to watch your prims its easier to sometimes build it yourself and keep your prims low.

First was decking and a pier to the sea where we put a seating area for us to sit and look around . Its a great spot and we love it, I watched on as muscle creates and then its a yay or nay from me , 9/10 he gets it spot on with the vision I have in my mind, I don't really have to tell him he can read my thoughts like a book.

The 2nd big thing we built together was the roman ruins seating area .Between us we created a little master piece , I must say we got side tracked in the middle and it ended up in party mood, stuck a dance floor down and hour later rolling around laughing . Not taking building so serious but just going with the flow. when it was finished to look back and think wow we did that is the best feeling ever. You keep having a look at it and patting yourself on the back.

3ed big thing i created was the garden. This was a complete surprise for muscle . A mission I had set myself because I know how much muscle likes going to gardens to relax one of his favourite places is a sim garden. I started with the base and it rose from the ashes the neighbours watched on . Prim counting in my head and going a hunting and a gathering around SL for the jigsaw pieces. It wasn't perfect when he signed in but got the same impact yep stopped him dead in his tracks . I love to surprise him and make his face beam . gives me a great sense of satisfaction that fills my heart. We then set about changing bits together , Muscle building little bits of things and me trying to get the lay out right . I also added another part to the garden where we can watch the sunset together over the sea .We have created a great thing space for each other and its amazing very relaxing where you can reflect on things just chill out and relax.

Well we haven't finished there now we can build over our heads. Muscles surprise for Zena . he created an area above our house high in the sky for us to build on . I thought about building a winter wonderland but total change of direction we now are building an area to take friends to. Our house is very personal to us this is its not been touch by any bad feeling or bad vibes a place where me and muscle and get lost in each other and our thoughts . Only close friends have entered our paradise mine more then Muscles , Suzi always calls in for a chit chat and I like to show winn what we have done.

Well what next for us . I ant got a clue just going with the flow building and spending time with my partner is the most important thing . We like taking new adventures every time we are together always some element of change in our time we pass together, not make the same day twice. Variety is the spice of life , if everything was set in stone then the world would be a dull and boring place, we are given a gift of imagination and creation.SL lights the wick fills it full of fuel to burn so bright. Nothing is impossible in SL set your mind in the right direction and anything is achievable.

Renting a home

I had been thinking about what it would be like to have my own place in SL , I figured I may as well do the full hog on SL, I'm not a monthly subscriber to SL so I asked questions to friends to find out how I go about getting a place. Me and Muscle also talked and dreamed about our place to call ours. This complete u-turn from my first opinion about having your own place , I used to think it was crazy and never got my head around the idea but as time goes by, you talk to people who have there own places and get intreaged, my thoughts soon changed.

Our first house was a complete surprise to Muscle, when we where in our meets in the clubs we talked about our own paradise and how it would be great to have our own space, somewhere no one can disturb us, our own little bubble that was just simply filled with our everything. Zena then went on a mission one night while he was off line to find a home for them. Both of us had never done this before so we had opened up a new chapter in our lives.


First I did a search and began Tp around place what i could see to rent. Because this was a trail as well I didn't want to go to expensive. There was questions in my mind was it a waste of money? would we really use it ?. This was a whole new world to me and I didn't know what to expect.
Everywhere looking at houses where they furnished etc. I didn’t really understand what getting a house entailed, prim count mean nothing to me. I just wanted a home for me and Muscle something to call ours. At last I found our first home as soon as I Tped to the area I knew. Warm feeling came over me. Yep this was the one. I had to IM the owner so I could have a look around , as soon as I went in I knew . A smile came in to me and a sense of excitement. Just as I was sealing the deal Muscle logged on. I tped him straight away.
First words, Welcome to our new home, Well I thought it could go either way, he shouts TAXI and gets the hell out of there or he is so speechless he fall downs dead.Im glad to say he did neither of them, he was defiantly speechless. I sensed a big mood swing and a huge smile beaming across SL I even had to put my sun glasses on this smile was that great. I sealed the deal and went in to house with Muscle we was like a couple of teenagers.
We kept looking around the house laughing like a couple of kids because it was furnished we didn't need to buy anything. Few days went by and i asked the owners if we could change the rooms around, make it more like ours. They changed the complete lay out for us . I also asked if we could put things in house that people had given us. This introduced me to us to prim counts . I didn't have a clue. We put pictures up etc and made it ours. Goddess is a great place our first home. We never really went out much, in fact we was always there when we where logged on together. Muscle created special gifts for me . The ying and yang picture was a gift . When I walked in and saw that i thought wow . speechless and that's hard to do cause sometimes i talk for England. It felt that we had been at goddess for a life time. we loved it. We was also introduced to building here. This is why we moved on to our second home. We wanted more prims to play with create. Muscle is a great builder and he introduced me to it. We wanted to put more of a stamp on SL with our own special place .

We talked about it and agreed to move. We was going to buy land at this point but prices and the tier are sometimes so expensive. we changed our mind and went back in to renting . One of Muscles friends found the next place for us. I sent Muscle on a head to look as I had got a bit fed up of looking around. He TPed me in seconds . we had found our new paradise . More land and more prims all what was on the land was a house and we could do what we liked there. We started shopping together to get things for the house just like a RL couple.

This new place is fantastic, and building together is just the best. Building something from scratch is just the best feeling. I have now started to build but muscle is the best one. We love our new house as it has more and more of us in it. Every room is personal to us and we sure have put our stamp on to SL the great thing is that it private no one can just enter it really is our very own personal paradise .

Partnering

This was very funny, I knew muscle wanted to ask me something every time he went down that road I would change the subject or shout for a TAXI. when he did build up enough courage and spit it out I felt happy and excited I didn't say yes straight away , I felt a little strange because part of me felt I was being disloyal to other friends and if they saw his name on my profile then they would know and dam me for it , the other part is that I thought it was a whole dream and I was going to wake up with him not there.
I had to sort my friends list out before I was able to accept, both of us had to tell our friends about each other. Hate to say but this was one of my worst weeks on SL but together we got throw it no matter what bad Ims we got we would stay focused on the mission of happiness. We caused a lot of pain and heartache that week this I am sorry for; we didn't tend to hurt anyone. Being together as a couple was never planned, neither of us had even thought it really happen to us. But all I can say on SL never say never. After that week had gone I could see the sun coming up on the horizon I sat and thought about what Muscle had said to me, about partnering. I just thought what the hell, I know what I want, why am I worrying over other people and the what if's... So I raised the question again I could see the smile coming bigger and bigger. We didn't want a wedding nothing so extreme as we both have strong views on them , just me and him knowing we belong to each other was enough to make us very happy
Its easy to partner on SL, go to website send a request to the person you would like to partner and they send a reply. Makes me laugh because you have to pay and you pay more for a divorce .We sat at home one Friday night and did it. You could see the smile on each other faces. ,I wanted to tell the world and everyone what me and Muscle Had just done . Slowly the Ims came in congratulating us must say got a lot of OMG first. We went to some clubs after and danced the night way. We went to the clubs where we had spent the most nights together at the start of our journey getting to know each other. Its the best thing I have done. I have no regrets and if he asks me again i would say....... TAXI lol no I would do it again and again and again .